Something occurred to me in the shower the other morning …
I was listening to a positive message on my phone as I showered off and it occurred to me that I’ve been slipping back into some negative thinking about a project I’m working on.
Since I quit teaching school (praise the Lord), I’ve been working from home as a freelance writer and personal trainer. Well, this other project I’ve started (and re-started) is a big challenge, and maintaining a positive attitude toward it is a bigger challenge.
A day or two ago, one of the positive messages I was listening to was from the comedian Steve Harvey, and he was talking about finding your gift. To be happy and successful, Harvey said, you have to find your gift and do that.
OK, I thought, well …
My gift — the thing I am most good at and enjoy the most; the thing that doesn’t really seem like work — is writing. So maybe this other project I’m involved in is not right for me. Maybe it is taking time and energy away from my gift. Maybe writing is what I should be concentrating on ALL the time, and not just part of the time.
I thought, “Well, I’ll continue to pursue this other project and give it my best shot, because I don’t want to quit before I can honestly say to myself that I did my best, and it just didn’t work out.”
This morning, it occurred to me … no, that’s wrong.
Maybe you’re looking at it the wrong way.
Thinking like that is just an excuse. Creating a way out.
Stepping onto that negative, slippery slope.
I became a personal trainer a few years ago after I got into pole vaulting, got into shape, and started feeling better about myself and about life in general than I had in a long, long time. People told me my journey was inspiring. I got e-mails and letters and Facebook messages, and sometimes people shook my hand and told me it was inspiring.
So I decided to become a trainer specializing in senior fitness to try and inspire other older folks and let them know that it’s never too late.
My life has had its ups and downs, but whenever I have made up my mind to try and do something, I’ve pretty much always done it.
So what occurred to me this morning is that maybe my “gift” is my ability to set my mind on something and then go do it. To achieve my goal.
And maybe my writing, instead of being my gift, is actually one of my talents that helps me communicate and reach others. Maybe my freelance writing goes hand-in-hand with this other project, and I’m supposed to be doing both.
Instead of creating an excuse in case it doesn’t work out, maybe I need to step it up a little bit, keep working at it, and believe it will happen when it’s supposed to happen.